da x bez..

Da jadik xbez... hahaha.. nk tau mnde yg da x bez.. Hah! ade ler... xnk gtau da.. Hmm... missing all those people yg da xde lg n da lost contact... byk citer da... tp xbyk yg aku rela nk tulis kt cni... bia la dok dlm pale otak aku jek.. xyah la ko da bce ni, ko nk tye aku ape mslh aku dlm nada caring.. Laan sai la lu...! xbole caye pye olang la lu... I know my own self and I decide my own rites.. juz get off from my back..k..? aku da xde ati nk tulis lg... aku nk tulis ngn Mr Drago... Chow..!

owh..shit...

i'm fucked up... aku tertido lalu aku terlepas janji nk g tgk teater dgn gadisku... damn..! dye sungguh..SUNGGUH MARAH...!! n aku lak xtau nk wat ape.. lalu mengambil tindakan mendiamkn diri sahaja.. aku xtau nk ckp pe kt dye.. mst dye marah punya la,.. kalo aku pn mst aku marah punya... haiih... cmne leh tertdo ni.. ni msti tekanan exam LKU yg hancus td ni.. Gadisku... maafkn aku.. sesungguhnya tdo 2 xsalah... pliss forgive me~ (dlm nada lagu Bryan Adams- Please Forgive Me..)...
huh... hambar siot.. da lar da wat salah.. wat hambar plak... sori my Girl...

Forgive me, 4 i have sinned...

i dedicate diz 2 u all my frens.. my beloved frens.. whom i've known 4 bout 3 years alredy.. who helped me when i was in sadness, hardness, and PAIN... i never tot dat i'll be like diz.. hey,, we used 2 have all those fun 2gether.. we're like brother n sisters... but, HOW THE HELL THAT I HAVE ABANDONED U ALL...?? Shit..! thanx Little Red.., our talk dat evening had made me realize.. dat i've been lost in my own world.. a world called "LOVE".. i realize now how cruel i've been 2 my precious frens.. all bcoz i'm being so crazy bout love.. y don't u guys told me earlier bot diz...?? or is it me, who dodged those advices..?? i've been selfish.. i ain't thinking bout ur feelings... especially u 2... My Little Mushroom n Awek..

Awek.. 4 all i could remember.. u are d only girl who've known the darker side of me.. u have been there.., u saw me.., n u know wat kind of person i am.. but, yet u still keep it silence..mentioned n talked only wif people who also have known it.. we always travel 2gether 2 N9 b4 i continue home.. we spend times 2gether n have fun in KL b4 we get back 2 our own lazy-bored hometown.. n most of dat time we would have..
My Little Mushroom... U are sooo00 important 2 me.. u are the closest 2 me.. u know much bout me and understand me very well.. we've always been there when we need each other.. u comfort me when i was uneasy.. u introduce me 2 ur family..n i am so happy 2 know n met ur sis n ur mother..! they are realy nice people... it's juz me who are so fucked-up.. u teach me a lot of things.. if there's no u, i'll never get 2 know diz city diz much.. i could'nt survive if u never thought me all dat.. heyy.., i spent most time wif u than i spent wif my 'siblings'.. there are so much more dat i could say bout u rite now, but dat would costs me the whole nite, n morn..

Alrite, i wanted 2 say diz in front of both of u.. but i dont know how 2 confont u guys anymoe.. i'm ashamed of myself.. u guys are probably sick looking me spending time wif my Girlfren when i'm free, rite..? n i've actually forget bout u n how we used 2 be... u all must be so mad at me rite..? heh.. Awek, who are 1 tough girl n not a type of emotional gal, had showed her opinion yesterday... but i dont take it seriously untill... Little Red told me everything dat evening..and she also made me realize why u started being so cold 2 me, my own kawan baik, Little Mushroom. it's started when i refuse 2 have brekfast wif u coz i wanted 2 meet my Girlfren rite..?

Oh God..! i'm so stuck over here.. i want my Girlfren..! but i dont wanna lose my frens..! this precious little frens whom i've known long b4 i met wif my Girlfren..!
Arrgh....! cant u all juz get along..? Awek, Little Mushroom, Girlfren..n of coz u 2, Miss Little Red... i really want u all 2 juz get along wif me.. hey.. Girlfren realy want 2 spend time wif u Little Mushroom.. she told me dat she missed u... realy..! n i see u've overcome ur stage fright yeah..? hepi 4 dat...
N miss Girlfren... i hope u would understand me.. there's no other feelings toward Awek n Little Mushroom.. they are my BEST FRIENDS!! n i appreciate them so much..

alrite.. enough...stop...tears...

owh... I'm so fucked-up...

konvofuckingfest

aku bkn benci..
malulah aku nkk ngaku..tp aku mmg jeles.. jeles ble tgk ko mlyan org ngurat ko.. mmg trang2 nmpk la org 2 nk ngurat ko.. sume org leh nmpk.. agk2 ble kwn2 aku bkak fb ko..pas2 bce komen2 mggatal 2 sume, dorg ckp pe..? "raje, bia betol ni awek ko?" "eh, awek ko psg len dowh!" "ko da kne maen la raje.." n mcm2 lg aku pk dorg bole ckp la... ngn sifat aku yg slalu bodoh2 ni mmg x mustahil org nk ckp cm2 kt aku.. bangang aku ni..
ko mrh aku kwn2 ngn dak2 pmpn.. even aku tgk pn ko sepak aku.. aku ikut ckp ko.. aku xkwn ngn dak pmpn 2.. sbb aku xperlukn dorg.. aku prlukan ko.. baru2 ni pn ade jek pmpn nk knal ngn aku.. tp awal2 lg aku ckp kt dorg aku da ade awek, aku syg kt awek aku 2.. serta merta dorg xjdk kwn.. tp ade aku ksah..? X! lgsg aku xksah..! sbb aku xnk kwn ngn dorg..aku da ade byk kwn2..aku da ade gf aku yg aku syg sgt2.. smpaikan ade sorg mmbe aku ni tegur aku.. "raje, ko jgn mnjekn sgt... jge diri ko 2 dlu.." huh.. xsgke lak ak nmpk smpai mcm terabai diri sndri..

somak nk blanje aku nasik.. aku lapar.. siyez lapar.. tp aku segan ngn ko somak.. ko baek ngn aku.. ko lg nk blnje aku.. ble ko ckp ko kwn ngn aku bkn sbb duit, aku terasa..... ko mmg kwn aku somak.. walaupn perangai ko kdg2 wat aku menyampah, tp ko la kwn yg baek.. trimas somak..

mlm ni patotnye kte dok sme2.. aku nk brsame2 ngn ko.. ko mtk aku belikan bunga.. aku xde duit.. siyez da abes lgsg da.. bsnes aku rugi.. aku siap berutang lg nk ganti modal smlm.. tp aku xnk hampakn ko..aku xnk malu sbb xde duit.. aku pnjam dlu duit mmbe aku.. tp dpt rm10 jek.. n smapi kt sne, tbe2 meon plak prlukan rm10 nk byr simcard u-pax.. dye dire sgt nk beli mse tgh xde duit ni apsal... aku jadik serba salah.. biasenye, aku akn bg kt mmber2 baek aku ni duit 2.. walau 2 jek yg aku ade.. tp psl td aku da jnji nk bg ko bunga.. kalo meon nmpk aku belikan ko bunga plak, msti dye pikir aku lbh pntgkan awek dri mmber.. sudahnye aku decide biar sume xdpt..

ble smpai kt ats.. ko da dpt sit da.. xperla xde sit utk aku psl ko kate ko smpai2 da penuh kn.. bt ko juz tgk je la aku berdiri kt c2.. xde rase nk tman aku ke.. fine.. aku pn da xde rase nk brdiri kt ats 2.. better ak blk dok ats kusi.. type blog.. luah prasaan skit ati ni.. ni je pn privacy yg ade..

dah... aku bkn bnci ko pn.. aku syg giler kt ko.. n ko pn syg giler kt aku.. aku harap ko bole nmpk.....

Da berzaman..

mnde yg da berzaman..? blog ni la.. da berzaman aku x update.. bru aku pasan.. aku cap ade skip bulan jun n julai siot.. tgk blog little mushroom td, fuuyoooh..! ko mmg gile taip blog la little mushroom.. 500++ blog ko da taip.. nk wat novel pn da bole 2..
hmm.. byk bnde berlaku(ayt pembuka yg biase dgunakan lpas sekian lame x update blog)... tp cm biase ar.. ape yg terlintas ni kang aku taip la.. hmm.. raye!! raye aritu.. 1st day sedeyh + bosan.. 2nd day, jadik Amareka.. org ari raye beraye, aku g mlancong ngn my siblings kt PD.. tajaan abg Padil, bf ejum.. hehe.. raye ke 3 baru balik umah.. raye ke 4n ke 5.. igt nk g raye umah little mushroom n Jazz.. but budget x ckop la nt.. da janji ngn Syu.. so, raye ke 4 n 5, juz dok mngadap "bini" aku, n hangout ngn Stap Anep.. raye ke 6.. hehe..jeng3! ke umah Syu.. eyh.. ne leh gtau psl kt sane.. tp yg pnting dpt restu si ibu, si ayah ikutkn aje, n the siblings plak sume cm okey je.. tggu Syu plak, ntah ble dye nk dtg ke teratak diRaja Selangor ni.. n ntah hape aku nk ckp kt org tua aku.. tggu la nati kn... ke 7 n 8.. ngadap 'bini' n stap anep..lg.... ke 9, grak ke Sg. buloh, umah Nda Odah.. kt sane lepak ngn Ayed, sepupu aku gak.. the next day terus aku tembak ke Sg. besi.. awal2 pagi lg.. sbb nk g date ngn Syu.. hehe.. tgk citer Piranha..menjerit2 sbb terkejut sampai 2 kali my gf ni.. haha.. then, back 2 the Camp-us... BOOOSSAAANNN GILLEEEEER... dah la.. bkn aku xde kwn2 kt cni.. jgn kate kwn2.. adek bradek, kawan baek, kawan x baek, kawan giler, kawan yg kantoi mencuri pas2 mkn kaki tgn aku, kwn yg blanje mkn, kwn yg mtk blanje mkn, kwn cacat, kwn sengal, kwn xpnah tegur, kwn yg slalu tegur tp xtau name dye pn ade... huh.. Gf pn ad kt cni.. kluarga jek kt kmpg... eyh.., ade ke mak aku ngadu kt sarul.. dye ckp aku skang da slalu xder duit.. duit ntah kasik pnjam org ke hape ntah.. dlu bole jek bg rm300.. skg xde terus.. Laa..da cuti raye.. mmg aku blk kmpg.. nk pkai duit mtk la terus, xyah la aku nk bank in lg.. tp sblm ni pn mmg aku da kurang kasik duit kt mak aku.. bkn x bg lgsg pn.. 200, 150,250 la aku bg.. ok.. jap lagi aku bank in 300!! huh.. baru igt nk smpan beli 125LC...
Ceh.. sabar la nage... ur time will come... k.. chow lo...

I Don't Know Much...

..But I Know I Love You...
it's a song.. sape ntah yg nyanyi.. omputih la... lagu lame.. jiwang giler.. n aku post kt wall Syu somethg n aku selitkn ayt ni.. hehe.. terasa nk jiwang plak..
Sejak 2 menjak ni aku da makin byk mluangkan mase utk msg ngn Syu..mgkin sejak peristiwa "1 pagi di hari raya" kot.. heh.. evnthou aku agk trganggu.. tp btol lar ckp my sepupu, Stap Anip, all it takes is juz a little moe time wif her.. n it's seems 2 be working.. i've enough.. so, walupn mls, bz, pnat.. aku pakse gak diri aku utk pgang fon 2 kjap.. hmm.. nk tau psl pristiwa "1 pg di Hari Raya" ke..? heh.. xyah la.. i guess yg nk tau 2 msti da tau dulu da.. trmasuk yg terlibat dlm peristiwa 2 skali.. ceh.. malu la aku citer psl 2 kt dlm blog nieyh... Damn.. da la.. bnde da setel.. usah d fkrkn lg..
Hmm.. Syu mtk aku surat cinta.. mak aih.. celah mane nk cari ilham surat mnyurat ni..?? 2 zaman skola ye ar.. ceh.. it's all off from me now.. aku nk cari privacy utk mulakan surat 2 pn xder.. hmm.. biler2 ade free la.. nt aku wat la kalo igt... huhu..

Bengang!!

mmg bengang sgt!! apehal...? tiap kali aku mrh..aku msti thn.. then aku ckp elok2 tnpa mrh2.. tp nape last2 ko lak yg jdk mrh2 pas2 mrajok..?? aku salah... yer.. mmg aku salah..sbb x marah jek ko tros mse aku tgh marah2..sbb aku sabar jek xnk marah ko.. takot ko nanges lg.. ble aku trlepas marah kt ko mlm 2, on the spot ko nanges.. aku sdeyh jugak tau x..? bkn niat aku nk wat ko nanges.. aku x suka pmpn yg aku syg nanges sbb aku... even kalo aku mati pon, aku xnk ko menagisi kmatian aku.. aku jdk marah2 mlm ni, tp aku xlpas pn kt ko.. aku lpas kt kwn2 aku.. xmasal2 dorg kne carut n maki hamun ngn aku,..dan aku plak dorg ckp brlagak nk mampos..! knape aku cmni...? x gangster lgsg..! aku bkn ape... aku tgk..mmg da jelas2, terang2 kadet KKMS "Dammit" 2 nk ngurat ko.. wehh.!! ko 2 gf aku skang..! aku da pesan da.. jgn layan dye.. ko iyer kn.. tp ble dye ckp " alaa..xpela.. nk kwn jek~".. ko tros melayan dye blk..! aku yg trnganga tgk ad org len yg tmnkn ko messaging.. tp..mmg ari ni combo pye bengang ko bg.. bleh plak plan2 nk jmpe kn..n ko pn g jmpe kn... mse ko gtau 2 mmg aku x tnjuk mrh.. sbb aku rndu giler kt ko.. da jmpe ko, tgk muke ko, ati aku jadik lmbut mse 2..aku trus lupe ap yg ko ckp mse 2.. tp ble ko tye aku blk psl nk cuti 2.. AKU MMG BTOL2 BENGANG!! ape ler ko g tye aku..gtau aku..cm mtk kbenaran aku, utk kuar ngn c bangsat 2...?! Aduuuss!! weeeeyyhhh!!! aku sayangkan ko tau x..?? jgn wat aku cmni...! Pliss..!!