Dilemma

Aku serabut..! SERABUT..!! Arrghh... Girls.. knape korg bergado...?? xleh ke korg bek2 jek.. aku da mental da ni.. dua-dua pn aku syg.. dua-dua baik n syg kt aku jgk... ape kputusan aku skg.. aku xtau nk wat ape... aku hanya mampu berdiam diri.. it's wat i always do.. Hmm.. Girls.. korg pn da nmpk kn.. I love both of u.. n if korg rse aku ni x setia.. aku relakan korg pergi.. carila lelaki yg setia... aku xmampu nk jge ati salah sorg drpd korg n break hati yg sorg lg.. if aku perlu wat kputusan, aku decide.. aku xnk dua-dua pn.. Argghh!! ape aku ckp ni..? pening sial.. mcm dlm filem plak,.. Ceit! huh!! aku da jadik bodo skang ni.. aku nk sendirian.. biarla aku sendiri dulu.. aku xmau contact both of u 4 now... tgula aku da tenang or aku ade penyelesaian, atau korg pn ade penyelesaian.. Sorry, my Queens....

it's not all bout u...

fhm x..? bkn kmu sorg jek yg ad dlm idup sy ni.. jgn nk terasa xmasal2.. byk bnde yg berlaku dlm idup sy.. byk org2 yg men peranan dlm idup sy.. sy xleh fokus kt kmu sorg jek.. kamu slalu wat kputusan cmni.. skg sy nk stuju ngn kputusan awk 2.. bole..?? kte try ea...

da x bez..

Da jadik xbez... hahaha.. nk tau mnde yg da x bez.. Hah! ade ler... xnk gtau da.. Hmm... missing all those people yg da xde lg n da lost contact... byk citer da... tp xbyk yg aku rela nk tulis kt cni... bia la dok dlm pale otak aku jek.. xyah la ko da bce ni, ko nk tye aku ape mslh aku dlm nada caring.. Laan sai la lu...! xbole caye pye olang la lu... I know my own self and I decide my own rites.. juz get off from my back..k..? aku da xde ati nk tulis lg... aku nk tulis ngn Mr Drago... Chow..!

owh..shit...

i'm fucked up... aku tertido lalu aku terlepas janji nk g tgk teater dgn gadisku... damn..! dye sungguh..SUNGGUH MARAH...!! n aku lak xtau nk wat ape.. lalu mengambil tindakan mendiamkn diri sahaja.. aku xtau nk ckp pe kt dye.. mst dye marah punya la,.. kalo aku pn mst aku marah punya... haiih... cmne leh tertdo ni.. ni msti tekanan exam LKU yg hancus td ni.. Gadisku... maafkn aku.. sesungguhnya tdo 2 xsalah... pliss forgive me~ (dlm nada lagu Bryan Adams- Please Forgive Me..)...
huh... hambar siot.. da lar da wat salah.. wat hambar plak... sori my Girl...

Forgive me, 4 i have sinned...

i dedicate diz 2 u all my frens.. my beloved frens.. whom i've known 4 bout 3 years alredy.. who helped me when i was in sadness, hardness, and PAIN... i never tot dat i'll be like diz.. hey,, we used 2 have all those fun 2gether.. we're like brother n sisters... but, HOW THE HELL THAT I HAVE ABANDONED U ALL...?? Shit..! thanx Little Red.., our talk dat evening had made me realize.. dat i've been lost in my own world.. a world called "LOVE".. i realize now how cruel i've been 2 my precious frens.. all bcoz i'm being so crazy bout love.. y don't u guys told me earlier bot diz...?? or is it me, who dodged those advices..?? i've been selfish.. i ain't thinking bout ur feelings... especially u 2... My Little Mushroom n Awek..

Awek.. 4 all i could remember.. u are d only girl who've known the darker side of me.. u have been there.., u saw me.., n u know wat kind of person i am.. but, yet u still keep it silence..mentioned n talked only wif people who also have known it.. we always travel 2gether 2 N9 b4 i continue home.. we spend times 2gether n have fun in KL b4 we get back 2 our own lazy-bored hometown.. n most of dat time we would have..
My Little Mushroom... U are sooo00 important 2 me.. u are the closest 2 me.. u know much bout me and understand me very well.. we've always been there when we need each other.. u comfort me when i was uneasy.. u introduce me 2 ur family..n i am so happy 2 know n met ur sis n ur mother..! they are realy nice people... it's juz me who are so fucked-up.. u teach me a lot of things.. if there's no u, i'll never get 2 know diz city diz much.. i could'nt survive if u never thought me all dat.. heyy.., i spent most time wif u than i spent wif my 'siblings'.. there are so much more dat i could say bout u rite now, but dat would costs me the whole nite, n morn..

Alrite, i wanted 2 say diz in front of both of u.. but i dont know how 2 confont u guys anymoe.. i'm ashamed of myself.. u guys are probably sick looking me spending time wif my Girlfren when i'm free, rite..? n i've actually forget bout u n how we used 2 be... u all must be so mad at me rite..? heh.. Awek, who are 1 tough girl n not a type of emotional gal, had showed her opinion yesterday... but i dont take it seriously untill... Little Red told me everything dat evening..and she also made me realize why u started being so cold 2 me, my own kawan baik, Little Mushroom. it's started when i refuse 2 have brekfast wif u coz i wanted 2 meet my Girlfren rite..?

Oh God..! i'm so stuck over here.. i want my Girlfren..! but i dont wanna lose my frens..! this precious little frens whom i've known long b4 i met wif my Girlfren..!
Arrgh....! cant u all juz get along..? Awek, Little Mushroom, Girlfren..n of coz u 2, Miss Little Red... i really want u all 2 juz get along wif me.. hey.. Girlfren realy want 2 spend time wif u Little Mushroom.. she told me dat she missed u... realy..! n i see u've overcome ur stage fright yeah..? hepi 4 dat...
N miss Girlfren... i hope u would understand me.. there's no other feelings toward Awek n Little Mushroom.. they are my BEST FRIENDS!! n i appreciate them so much..

alrite.. enough...stop...tears...

owh... I'm so fucked-up...

konvofuckingfest

aku bkn benci..
malulah aku nkk ngaku..tp aku mmg jeles.. jeles ble tgk ko mlyan org ngurat ko.. mmg trang2 nmpk la org 2 nk ngurat ko.. sume org leh nmpk.. agk2 ble kwn2 aku bkak fb ko..pas2 bce komen2 mggatal 2 sume, dorg ckp pe..? "raje, bia betol ni awek ko?" "eh, awek ko psg len dowh!" "ko da kne maen la raje.." n mcm2 lg aku pk dorg bole ckp la... ngn sifat aku yg slalu bodoh2 ni mmg x mustahil org nk ckp cm2 kt aku.. bangang aku ni..
ko mrh aku kwn2 ngn dak2 pmpn.. even aku tgk pn ko sepak aku.. aku ikut ckp ko.. aku xkwn ngn dak pmpn 2.. sbb aku xperlukn dorg.. aku prlukan ko.. baru2 ni pn ade jek pmpn nk knal ngn aku.. tp awal2 lg aku ckp kt dorg aku da ade awek, aku syg kt awek aku 2.. serta merta dorg xjdk kwn.. tp ade aku ksah..? X! lgsg aku xksah..! sbb aku xnk kwn ngn dorg..aku da ade byk kwn2..aku da ade gf aku yg aku syg sgt2.. smpaikan ade sorg mmbe aku ni tegur aku.. "raje, ko jgn mnjekn sgt... jge diri ko 2 dlu.." huh.. xsgke lak ak nmpk smpai mcm terabai diri sndri..

somak nk blanje aku nasik.. aku lapar.. siyez lapar.. tp aku segan ngn ko somak.. ko baek ngn aku.. ko lg nk blnje aku.. ble ko ckp ko kwn ngn aku bkn sbb duit, aku terasa..... ko mmg kwn aku somak.. walaupn perangai ko kdg2 wat aku menyampah, tp ko la kwn yg baek.. trimas somak..

mlm ni patotnye kte dok sme2.. aku nk brsame2 ngn ko.. ko mtk aku belikan bunga.. aku xde duit.. siyez da abes lgsg da.. bsnes aku rugi.. aku siap berutang lg nk ganti modal smlm.. tp aku xnk hampakn ko..aku xnk malu sbb xde duit.. aku pnjam dlu duit mmbe aku.. tp dpt rm10 jek.. n smapi kt sne, tbe2 meon plak prlukan rm10 nk byr simcard u-pax.. dye dire sgt nk beli mse tgh xde duit ni apsal... aku jadik serba salah.. biasenye, aku akn bg kt mmber2 baek aku ni duit 2.. walau 2 jek yg aku ade.. tp psl td aku da jnji nk bg ko bunga.. kalo meon nmpk aku belikan ko bunga plak, msti dye pikir aku lbh pntgkan awek dri mmber.. sudahnye aku decide biar sume xdpt..

ble smpai kt ats.. ko da dpt sit da.. xperla xde sit utk aku psl ko kate ko smpai2 da penuh kn.. bt ko juz tgk je la aku berdiri kt c2.. xde rase nk tman aku ke.. fine.. aku pn da xde rase nk brdiri kt ats 2.. better ak blk dok ats kusi.. type blog.. luah prasaan skit ati ni.. ni je pn privacy yg ade..

dah... aku bkn bnci ko pn.. aku syg giler kt ko.. n ko pn syg giler kt aku.. aku harap ko bole nmpk.....

Da berzaman..

mnde yg da berzaman..? blog ni la.. da berzaman aku x update.. bru aku pasan.. aku cap ade skip bulan jun n julai siot.. tgk blog little mushroom td, fuuyoooh..! ko mmg gile taip blog la little mushroom.. 500++ blog ko da taip.. nk wat novel pn da bole 2..
hmm.. byk bnde berlaku(ayt pembuka yg biase dgunakan lpas sekian lame x update blog)... tp cm biase ar.. ape yg terlintas ni kang aku taip la.. hmm.. raye!! raye aritu.. 1st day sedeyh + bosan.. 2nd day, jadik Amareka.. org ari raye beraye, aku g mlancong ngn my siblings kt PD.. tajaan abg Padil, bf ejum.. hehe.. raye ke 3 baru balik umah.. raye ke 4n ke 5.. igt nk g raye umah little mushroom n Jazz.. but budget x ckop la nt.. da janji ngn Syu.. so, raye ke 4 n 5, juz dok mngadap "bini" aku, n hangout ngn Stap Anep.. raye ke 6.. hehe..jeng3! ke umah Syu.. eyh.. ne leh gtau psl kt sane.. tp yg pnting dpt restu si ibu, si ayah ikutkn aje, n the siblings plak sume cm okey je.. tggu Syu plak, ntah ble dye nk dtg ke teratak diRaja Selangor ni.. n ntah hape aku nk ckp kt org tua aku.. tggu la nati kn... ke 7 n 8.. ngadap 'bini' n stap anep..lg.... ke 9, grak ke Sg. buloh, umah Nda Odah.. kt sane lepak ngn Ayed, sepupu aku gak.. the next day terus aku tembak ke Sg. besi.. awal2 pagi lg.. sbb nk g date ngn Syu.. hehe.. tgk citer Piranha..menjerit2 sbb terkejut sampai 2 kali my gf ni.. haha.. then, back 2 the Camp-us... BOOOSSAAANNN GILLEEEEER... dah la.. bkn aku xde kwn2 kt cni.. jgn kate kwn2.. adek bradek, kawan baek, kawan x baek, kawan giler, kawan yg kantoi mencuri pas2 mkn kaki tgn aku, kwn yg blanje mkn, kwn yg mtk blanje mkn, kwn cacat, kwn sengal, kwn xpnah tegur, kwn yg slalu tegur tp xtau name dye pn ade... huh.. Gf pn ad kt cni.. kluarga jek kt kmpg... eyh.., ade ke mak aku ngadu kt sarul.. dye ckp aku skang da slalu xder duit.. duit ntah kasik pnjam org ke hape ntah.. dlu bole jek bg rm300.. skg xde terus.. Laa..da cuti raye.. mmg aku blk kmpg.. nk pkai duit mtk la terus, xyah la aku nk bank in lg.. tp sblm ni pn mmg aku da kurang kasik duit kt mak aku.. bkn x bg lgsg pn.. 200, 150,250 la aku bg.. ok.. jap lagi aku bank in 300!! huh.. baru igt nk smpan beli 125LC...
Ceh.. sabar la nage... ur time will come... k.. chow lo...

I Don't Know Much...

..But I Know I Love You...
it's a song.. sape ntah yg nyanyi.. omputih la... lagu lame.. jiwang giler.. n aku post kt wall Syu somethg n aku selitkn ayt ni.. hehe.. terasa nk jiwang plak..
Sejak 2 menjak ni aku da makin byk mluangkan mase utk msg ngn Syu..mgkin sejak peristiwa "1 pagi di hari raya" kot.. heh.. evnthou aku agk trganggu.. tp btol lar ckp my sepupu, Stap Anip, all it takes is juz a little moe time wif her.. n it's seems 2 be working.. i've enough.. so, walupn mls, bz, pnat.. aku pakse gak diri aku utk pgang fon 2 kjap.. hmm.. nk tau psl pristiwa "1 pg di Hari Raya" ke..? heh.. xyah la.. i guess yg nk tau 2 msti da tau dulu da.. trmasuk yg terlibat dlm peristiwa 2 skali.. ceh.. malu la aku citer psl 2 kt dlm blog nieyh... Damn.. da la.. bnde da setel.. usah d fkrkn lg..
Hmm.. Syu mtk aku surat cinta.. mak aih.. celah mane nk cari ilham surat mnyurat ni..?? 2 zaman skola ye ar.. ceh.. it's all off from me now.. aku nk cari privacy utk mulakan surat 2 pn xder.. hmm.. biler2 ade free la.. nt aku wat la kalo igt... huhu..

Bengang!!

mmg bengang sgt!! apehal...? tiap kali aku mrh..aku msti thn.. then aku ckp elok2 tnpa mrh2.. tp nape last2 ko lak yg jdk mrh2 pas2 mrajok..?? aku salah... yer.. mmg aku salah..sbb x marah jek ko tros mse aku tgh marah2..sbb aku sabar jek xnk marah ko.. takot ko nanges lg.. ble aku trlepas marah kt ko mlm 2, on the spot ko nanges.. aku sdeyh jugak tau x..? bkn niat aku nk wat ko nanges.. aku x suka pmpn yg aku syg nanges sbb aku... even kalo aku mati pon, aku xnk ko menagisi kmatian aku.. aku jdk marah2 mlm ni, tp aku xlpas pn kt ko.. aku lpas kt kwn2 aku.. xmasal2 dorg kne carut n maki hamun ngn aku,..dan aku plak dorg ckp brlagak nk mampos..! knape aku cmni...? x gangster lgsg..! aku bkn ape... aku tgk..mmg da jelas2, terang2 kadet KKMS "Dammit" 2 nk ngurat ko.. wehh.!! ko 2 gf aku skang..! aku da pesan da.. jgn layan dye.. ko iyer kn.. tp ble dye ckp " alaa..xpela.. nk kwn jek~".. ko tros melayan dye blk..! aku yg trnganga tgk ad org len yg tmnkn ko messaging.. tp..mmg ari ni combo pye bengang ko bg.. bleh plak plan2 nk jmpe kn..n ko pn g jmpe kn... mse ko gtau 2 mmg aku x tnjuk mrh.. sbb aku rndu giler kt ko.. da jmpe ko, tgk muke ko, ati aku jadik lmbut mse 2..aku trus lupe ap yg ko ckp mse 2.. tp ble ko tye aku blk psl nk cuti 2.. AKU MMG BTOL2 BENGANG!! ape ler ko g tye aku..gtau aku..cm mtk kbenaran aku, utk kuar ngn c bangsat 2...?! Aduuuss!! weeeeyyhhh!!! aku sayangkan ko tau x..?? jgn wat aku cmni...! Pliss..!!

Hmm... naper aku rase down jek ni...?? xtau dari segi aper yg wat aku down cket ni.. mmg aku nmpak suke2, hepi, gelak2 gumbira bersame teman2..tp dlm ati aku ni ade cket perasaaan x tenteram... ape haa...?? shit.. it makes me feel suxx! i dont realy care bout things happening roun' me, but somethng bother me.. hell with it..! i suppose 2 feel happy..coz i have Syuhaidah Masturah aroun.. hehe.. selain kawan2 bek aku like Somark, Jaz, Moi, Topek, G-he, Ipan, n many moe.. Syu pn antara sbb aku nmpk gembira sjak kebelakangan ni... hehe... sbb... dye Girlfren aku..! hehe~ she's a good gf... perhaps the best i've so far.. heh~ Love her~! dye wat aku lbh matang dlm hubungan.. menyayangi aku setiap mase..smpai kdg2 aku takot xdpt bls kasih syg 2 dgn life aku yg asek bz jek ni.. Hmm.. Thanx a lot 2 her..! sajer aku xnk knalkn dye kt korg.. sbb aku malu.. xnk jadik cm Fara.. baru2 ni dye serang aku kt fb.. aku tegur dye psl serangan 2.. then 'abg agkt' dye plak masuk cmpur.. wa bengang wa serang blk mamat 2..! hah.. terbakarrr sial mamat 2..! Dah! xmo citer psl dye da... hmm.. da pkol 5.. aku nk tido.. td da sahur mkn nasi lauk daging.. knyang beb..!
lupe nk ucap..
Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan al-Mubarak.. pose..jgn x pose...!
hehe~

assalammualaikum....

Fuuhh!! long time no seee....!! mmg sangat...SaNgAt....SANGAT...Saaannngggaaaaaaaattt...lame skali aku x update...
hum..bkn per...xde mase n xde ternet... sume bermule sejak g KDSI 1 bln 6 ari 2....
hmm... nk update pnjg2, ak rase xsmpat kot...cani jelar...
Impotant Update... :
1) G KDSI 1 bln 6 ari 2... lot of fun..n some shit do happened...
2) Love...? i) it's over wif Fara... no comment... xde mood nk talk bout love.. secret...!
3) bln pose dkat... berjimat la Raje Nage..! raye nt nk pkai duit lg...
4) aku jual mercun nt kot.... nk beli..?
5) aku da setel da utang2 lame aku yg membebankn 2... tp org len yg xsetel lg utang dorg ngn aku... cehh!!

da lar... ade lg nk ckp psl sorrg girl ni... Syuhaidah Masturah... tp nt dulu... perjalanan masih jauh...

Mmg Cepat kn...?

aku pn xpuas jumpe ko ari 2.. da ler lame x sembang2, borak2, gurau2 n gado2 ngn ko... Hmm.. nanti ko masuk hutan, ko pakai la line Digi.. dlm iklan dye smpai dlm gua, dlm laut pn org kuning 2 bole ikot.. aku rase bole la kot... aku op kos la bole bwk fon... tp aku xpastila yg aku akn sepak2 budak cm natang Baby ( pronounced as ba~bi )..
klar... take care gak, kwn baek....

kn da laen....

bkn sbb ape pn laen... da orang x suke, aku pn xnkla suke2 sorg2..
cmni, it happen a few days ago...i got scolded whn i was trying 2 be nice... not by a stranger, or enemy, or animals... bt by a person who were really close 2 me..
Huh.. we never talk 2 each other again since then.. weh, aku syg ko..So, Please dont be so0o0o0 arrogant.. kte kn best fren...ok?
*Sorry if i am being too annoying...

Suxx!!..

Ari ni dak2 in-take 2008 da bole balik.. KECUALI dak2 pengurusan.. mmg lahanat... tp ader jek dak2 pengurusan yg da balik pn.. just few yg stay.. aku da serabut babi da td memikirkan "keluar ke Stay?...Kuar ke Stay?...Kua ke Stei?" Haa.. cm2 la aku pikir smpai serabut.. then utk ilangkn serabut 2 , aku pn decide utk stay je la..
So.. here i am.. Tgh2 mlm kt dlm kem lg..ketika bdk2 len tgh enjoy kt luor 2.. ceh.. nsb bek Somark pn ade tman aku kt cni...

Miiirrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

haha.. Follower baru aku...
Thanx Mira.! Patot aku tgk ko ari ni rase cm ade smthg jek.. aku igt ko nk ckp "i love u, Raje Nage..".. xpon.. cmni.. "u are my hero, Raje Nage..!"... xpon ko nk ckp cmni.."Raje Nage! Please......" (Err.. pardon me..) Ghupenye ko follow aku ri ni... HAHA.. erm.. ahh.. da join 2.. pade para pmbaca skalian.. ade mase lbih 2..cbe korg scroll page blog aku ni smpai baaaawwwwwwaaaahhhh skali... Haa... vote la.. aku wat mmg khas utk korg kutuk aku... hakhakhak!!
aku taw korg suka kutuk aku... lg2 ko dak Latin.. cik Digestion.. kahkah.. ko pn da ngaku yg kelahiran ko kt dunia ni utk membahan aku kn..cipet ko...
tp xper... abg nage tau abg nage poket kendur.. tp abg nage mmg CooL.... HAHAHA!!
Aaa... Mis Amigos... Fuck u all diz....> MIS AMIGOS < Enjoy!!

AKU MAU CUTI..!!

hAA.. kan da jerit2.. zku ckp nk cuti..,NK CUTI ar!! yg bengong benor ade perubahan tarikh cuti ni psl aper..? knaper..?? knaper...????? KATAKANLAAAHHHHH!!!
cipet tol la... hMM..sbenornye xdr ar nk marah2 sgt... tp cuti ni kn...aku...nk g......jmpe Fara... cehh... lagi ngn probs duit.... HADOOOIII!!! Nsb bek Mr. Somark da bg aku jln penyelesaian utk mslh duit ni.. tp sdang tgu mase utk tibe hari penyelesaian 2.., dtg pulak masalah...msalah DUIT lg... ni dak2 navy ni lar.. lmbab smacam jek kutip duit.. kne aku dahulukan duit rokok Tn Mas.. n dan2 td Tn Mas mesej aku mtk duit 2 ... Cipet.. Memang haram jadah... aku rase makin lost dlm timbunan hutang... Atok aku dulu pernah pesan.. kalo makan, pinggan 2 janngan ditatang atas tapak tangan..nt byk UTANG.. lg 1..! bile mkn nasi 2, makan dari tepi2 longgokan nasi dalam pinggan 2.. jgn mkn bhgian tgh terus.. nt byk UTANG... bile dok ats lantai, jgn dok bersilang kaki sambil mengangkang.., nt byk UTANG...,cm apek kalah judi..! Lg 1, orang tua2 kate "mkn kaki ayam.. nt da besar jadik orang kaya.." Haa..!! yolah 2 atok... den ikut smua.. dari keecik smpai bosar den amalkn da.. tp mmg trnyate smue 2 bkn kebenaran.., bkn suratan.., bukan kebetulan.., bukan jugak pepatah..nasihat..pedoman dan iktibar.. bukan gak penjodoh bilangan..penanda wacana..simpulan bahasa atau kata nama.. smue 2 DUSTA!! DUSTA semata2.. oleh sbab nk abihkn kaki ayam yg org len xnk mkn 2, atok ckp cm2.. dan mmg perut saye ni mmg xleh nk menghadap pembaziran makanan..,saye pn telan tok.. Atok senyum tgk sy mkn... tp da besar ni..x kaye pn aku tok...?
kahkahkah!! xmasal2 atok aku plak dipersalahkan.. Mtk maap, Tok... hehe~
Duit ni mmg masalah tol lar.. pasal duit la mcm2 bnde bole jadik.. n pasal duit gak la akku masuk U nih... kalo x da men bola utk AC MILAN da skang ni.. Jadik Striker lak 2 kan.. Fuuhhh~~! (.....) Ok la...!!! xdek AC MILAN..., tp NEGERI SEMBILAN ade kot..?? Eeehhehehe~~

segan

.... AAArrrgghhh!! tgk 2.. kn da tensen.. citer duit jek tensen.. da lar.. nt aku tensen sgt kang aku ggt skrin laptop ni kang.. Ermm..pas2 rosak, xleh nk men game, kne beli baru... HHaaa!! duit lg..!! Arrgghh!! jht tol la duit ni..!
Hmm.. da lar.. ni btol2 aku nk chow..
BTW.., kpade sekalian follower aku yg xterkire ramainya 2, (sbanrnye 4 org je pon) , aku ucapkn berbyk terima kasih kerna memFolow aku.. Amoi ( kalo translate Latin jadik digestione...), BeRlalang, Setuwed (btol kn eja die cani..?), n Shaiful..eh..Shaika...
Love u guys!! terimelah my gay kiss~~!! MMuuuaahh~ ahhaa'~ ahhaa'~~
HAHAHAHA!!

Romantika Malam Edan...

hadui.. haa..dlu daxde awek kn da kool..tp nk gak ade awek... tp cm bese ar.. pmpn2 yg aku knal sume ngadu bnde same.... kekurangan perhatian oleh sekor nage yg mmg nyate xdulik bnde2 len biler da ngadap game.. Hahaha... hambik aku td kne bebel ngn Fara.. kahkahkah..! bkn men lg dye bebel aku.. dari kelmarin kot... Somak tgk aku gayut ngn Fara igt cm org len gayut.. bkn men dye ngnjing2 aku, "naga jadik lmbut dpn Fara"... heh.. waalhal..lg teruk drpd 2 kalo dye tau aku kne marah ngn Fara... tp xder hal la sume 2.. da byase da... still under control.. td baru pas gayut.. Mule2 dye mrh smpai nk nangis2 dye.. DYE yg nk nanges..bkn Nage.. aku plak x abes2 gelak..thn..gelak..tahan... kehkehkeh..! at last dye plak wat aku mrh.. slame ni aku x pnah mrh2 dye beb.. tp td aku mrh la..cket jek mrh.. Eh..dye plak gelak2!! Huhoo~ pas2 kmbali la kami sperti sediakala.. hehm.. lame x sembang ngn dye.. hpon rosak la..kdt xde la..itu la..ini la.. jadik td mmg byk la yg dsembangkn.. mmg solid2 satu jam 2 dmanfaatkn dgn cakapn tanpa hnti.. well.. both pn pndai mrepek.. mmg masuk sgt la 2.. den aku soh dye tido ngn hpon.. ceh..nk tkan dye tdo... dye dolak dalih xmau..SEGAN~ pemalu Fara ni.. 2 yg lg aku suker 2..!! at last dye wat gak.. aku tggu slame 7 minit, krane wak2 average manusia normal utk dpt tdo ialah 7 minit, then aku nyanyikan my Fav Song, "I Don't Want To Miss A Thing" . FuuuYoohh~~~ romantika malam edan..> tajuk lagu Search.. kahkahkah! jiwang plak.. hakhak! bkn aper.. slalu sgt keras, awek.. pn rase rimas + bosan.. kne Jiwang2 ni, kasi cair cket... hehe....
xper kn Nage nk jiwang2..?? Well, aku pn nk membiak jugak....
Haa~~ :D
*Jgn nk muntah2 plak bace post nie!! tampor kang....

Nk Exam.

Huhu.. next week exam beb.. mggu ni stadi week.. tp stadi week ni la wak2 dak2 UPNM ni mggunakan mse2 free mereka utk menonton movie, men game, Fesbuk, n anytin yg xder kaitan ngn stadi.. org2 cm aku la... ader jek yg nerd2 n yg berusaha Stadi.. aku pn stadi gak sbnrnye.. tp bile aku bukak note2 yg aku ssalin spanjang sem ni.. aku rase khayal.. nota2 2 cm ayt mentera nk tidokn pmbaca2nye... Fuuhh! aku rase mase aku wat nota 2 dulu aku ader masukkn skali semangat tdo aku dlm 2 kot.. haaa.. merepek...
Hmm.. byk bnder nk wat.. byk utang nk bayar.. byk masalah yg perlu diselesaikan.. and ader darah yg perlu aku tumpahkan... Tunggu mase...pas exam..akn aku selesaikn korg sume.. insya allah..

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button..

citer ni da lame da kt wayang..tp baru mlm td aku tgk citer ni...Huu~ agk sedih siot.. mnarik citer ni beb... bout a prson who lain dr yg laen.. xleh bygkn kehidupan yg cm2... yelar.. org sume makin ari makin tua..mkn kerepot..tmbh kedut sane sini..tp ko plak grow younger... bunyik cm best kn..? makin ari makin mude... bt the truth is painful.. u'll watch people of your life die of sakit tua.. u'll see ur child grow older than u.. n u'll see ur lover getting older but need 2 take care of u n ur child...
ending citer ni, Benjamin mati dlm dakapan Daisy dlm bntuk bayi..
sgt mengharukn~ Huu~ taman~..

Moon..

Hmm.. da baper mlm da aku x nmpk bulan... Mane pegi bulan ni..? Hmm.. Awan mendung or posisi bulan 2 yg da mlepasi KL..? Ntah la.. cm nk sorok drpd aku jek.. HmMm.. ;-(
aku suke tengok bulan.. biler aku dongak ke langit malam yg gelap, and nampak bulan terang.. rase cm tenang jiwa aku niey.. walaupun x tiap2 mlm aku dongak ke langit utk tgk bulan, tp selang jangka mase tertentu, aku msti kne tgk bulan.. xtaw la aku ni Werewolf ke..burung antu ke..bak kate pepatah, "Bagai punggok rindukan bulan".. Punggok tau..! burung hantu..! bkn pungkok! Hmm.. byk citer aku dgr psl bulan ni.. salah satu citer..psl imej yg kiter nmpk prmukaan bula.. jelas nmpk time bulan penuh.. xtaula korg nmpk imej 2 cm aper.. tp bg aku n certain folks.. imej 2 nmpk cm sekor ayam jaguh berjantina jantan.. Citer 2 xbaper aku igt sgt la..dongeng kn.. Errm.. ade sekor ayam jaguh jantan ni.. dye mmg terer bab sabung menyabung ni.. tuan dye syg giler kt dye.. family tuan dye pn syg giler kt dye.. terutama skali ank tuan dye..bdk laki kecik umor 4-5 tahun cm2 lar.. 1 ari 2, tuan ayam ni yg berstatus duda kawen baru.. pas2 bini baru dye 2 cm xsuker kt aym 2 sbb dpt lebih perhatian.. so, 1 ari 2 dyer tuduh aym jaguh 2 curi2 mkn beras umah dorg.. sungguh kasihan ayam itu... then, dye sruh laki dye 2 sembelih ayam 2 kalo x dye tinggalkan rumah 2.. yg laki ni walaupn berat hati nk sembelih, tp bini punyer psl~.. ikot gak ckp bini dye g sembelih ayam 2.. tp ank laki dye 2 menangis2 mntak bpk dye jgn sembelih ayam 2.. tp bpk dye nk gak sembelih, da bini punyer psl~... mse bpk ni nak sembelih ayam 2, tbe2 bdk kecik 2 rampas ayam 2 n ckp dye nk lari dari umah 2 dgn ayam 2... mak bpk dye pn menggelabah n trus kejar dak 2.. mase dak 2 tgh lari2 tbe2 ayam 2 jadik besar..!(Ayam jadik beso!! WooW..!!) dye letak bdk 2 blkg dye n terbang.. Ayam bole trbang..! Woow..!) aym 2 ckp kt bdk 2.. (Ayam bole cakap.!! Woow!!) kte lari jauh dari umah ni..kte g bulan.. mase 2 baru bdk 2 plak yg menggelabah. dye suruh aym 2 cancel, tp aym 2 xnk da.. melalak2 bdk 2 smpai la ke bulan.. Ayam 2 besar giler sampaikn imej dye yg boleh dilihat kt bulan 2 mmg nmpk da besar dye kn... smpai ari ni ayam 2 ader lagi kt bulan 2..( Whaow!!) rasenyer mesti Neil Armstrong ader jmpe aym 2 mase naik bulan dulu, tp disorokkan daripada pendedahan umum oleh NASA.. Msti punyerla.. ni dongeng Melayu.. Xkn la tipu kot.. Huh!! aku da ngntok ni.. Aku nk citer psl rndu aku kt bulan n Fara td..! dah ni yg aku bercerite psl Ayam Naik ke Bulan punyer dongeng ni apahal..??! asbestos sungguh!
da lar... xder mood aku nk citer da.. ni sume aym naik ke bulan punyer psl...
CILAKAK Ayam!!

Baru jek...

Haa... ni nk bgtau ni.. aKu baru jek pndah umah baru... from tgkt 8 ke tgkt 5 plak skg.. 5-10.. serumah ngn Sasa, junior 09..yg mmg kamcing ngn aku.. n tuan Hanafi 07... tp x abes pndah lg pn... pndah brg2 layout jek dulu psl smlm dorg kate pg ni ade standby bed.. cilakak... kapten Low sndiri tnye kadet yg dye taji pg td.."siape kate ale stembai mled?" Hahh... lbh kurang cm2 la dye sebut kot.. Cehh.. bek xyah aku bersusah2 nk pndah..
Hmm.. Aku gak baru 2 ari lepas katam game Final Fantasy Tactics kt VBoy.. n td aku baru jek katam game HALO.. Fuuhh..!! Puas siot.! ni la kepuasan men game... game yg ade jln cerita... Skian lame aku men game2 2, biler da katam 2 raser...Syok giler siot.! haa.. Awl bln 3 ari 2 aku katam Rise of Nation: Throne and Patriot.. heh.. mcm bangge giler siot ble da dpt abes men game2 yg top ni.. mgkn kwn2 aku xrase game 2 best..psl ramai yg kaki bola jek.. xmen game bola,game askar... game yg aku men game askar gak.. tp version len cket drpd dorg... n game2 yg aku men ni mmg pnh top kt luar negara.. disebabkn dak2 ni pn bknnye gamerz pn, dorg xpnh dgar pn HALO, Rise of Nation..so dorg consider 2 game bongok... hek eleh... kalo kt america aku skg da leh jd kaye men game.. Hok iloh..! bley plak kn...?
Hmm.. puas da aku carut psl game.. ntah korg yg bace ni phm ke x ntah.. aku nk carut ape lg ek..? Errmm.. ade konflik ngn Fara dowh.. ntah paper..
kwn baik, ko patot ckp jek mse 2 yg ko mmg trganggu... tp ko wat muke yakin,so aku rase nk yakin ngn ko.. xperla.. Ko kn kuat.. Ahmad FAP 2 kn "kuat" gak ngn ko..kn..? hehehe :-p
klar... aku da lapar... jap g nk amek nasi lemak.. Bisnes kn~? then mlm laak ade function Platun 12... haha.. aku nk mkn byk2 mlm ni.. mkn smpai lebam!!
arrivederci..!

Aloop... Hmm2... apo bondo eh den nk kobar...?
ntah la.. den pn xtau... Aiiicehhh...! speakin nogoghi lak kn.. pngaruh Faraku syg la ni... Hakhakhak.! emm... Fara ni mmg la.....mmg... baek..! hehe.. ntah la... hbungan dgn dye merupakan satu pengalaman baru bg aku... hmm.. she;s a school grl.. she's learning...,in her studies n in her life.. she got a lot 2 know.. she's so pure... Haa~ ~❤♫❤♫❤♫~
in love again~.. nk Fara.. Aiishh.. btol ker aku rse cmni..? Hmm... i couldn't understand my own feelings.. wat am i realy think of her...? i've been wondering since the day we knoe each other, bt we have made diz far... aku ni knape..? adakah aku wat keputusan terburu-buru lg..? aku takut... aku hrp ni bknla kputusan trburu-buru cm yg aku wat dulu... sbb aku da rase syg kt Fara.. aku sgt hargai dye.. tp... tabiat aku... mmg ssh nk bendung... aku mmg mls msg2 ni... da ler fon nyer keypad pyh nk taip( sbb aku dpt dari sumber yg slh kot, jht dulu..).. i'd rather call her instead of sms... it would took me a whole day 2 think of wat am i goin 2 reply 2 her msgs... not juz her.. there's also few girls b4.... Hmmm.. tp Fara ni quite penyabar orgnyer... hehe.. Dat's good.. bler aku x balas msg2 dye, dye juz consider aku bz.. plg bengang pn dye akn bgtau dye 'terasa' coz aku x bls msg dye... tp.. xleh la aku take things 4 granted kn... someday dye akn bengang giler2 n BOOM! trcetus perang plak kn... Cm ngn Waniey dlu...
Hmmm... ni lg 1 hal... bler aku knal ngn sorang pmpan, imej Waniey msti trpapar kt minda aku dulu... Hmm.. da terbiase ker..? or dye adalah knangan pahit yg mmg sukar aku nk lupakan..? atau mayb dulu aku da serah seluruh hati aku kt dye.. yup.. mmg... hmm.. Waniey adalah antara peristiwa terpenting dalam hidup aku.. Hmm.. such a loss....
da lar..! smbang cmni..sdey plak...
daa~..

Everybody.....

4give me ..please....
2 sape2 yg aku wat slh... xkire jauh dekat, sngaje ke x.. aku mntak maaf...
k..? maaf...
daa...

Huuh..

wahh!! ak rase nk mengeluh jek.. asek nk mengeluh jek.. Fara pn da sound aku.. "Jgn mengeluh, sume yg rjadi ad hikmahnye.." lbh kurang cm2 la.. Hmm.. mmg pn.. aku ni mcm da jauh sgt drpd ajaran agama.. 2 yg byk mslh dtg sbgai ujian 2.. bongo la aku.. kalo dari kecik2 aku da tabligh, hafaz Quran ke, jd Qari ke.. msst tenang kn... ceh.. teruk tol moral n rohaniah aku skg.. bler agknye aku nk taubat ni..? Ya Allah.. takot siot aku.. baper lame aku akn dipanggang kt neraka nt.. Pergghh! da lar... takot sial.. huih.. saper suro wt dosa byk2.. pdn muke aku...

Hey u...

Hey... dear best fren...
hmm.. 2nite.. u really should told me dat u r goin 2 sleep already.. so dat i wouldnt burnt my bravo on d rush just now..! Hey.. we're best fren, girl.. it's good dat u r in a progress.. realy. I don mind if wouldnt talk or smile 2 me.. coz i understan it now... but it's good 2 see u talk n smiles wif other people.. dat would show people dat u r not an emo.. Hey.. u r 1 tough girl.. Dont think dat "people left u, betrays u"... NO..not every1... only the bunch of assholes.. Haha.. Alrite... DAT guy..? he's a serious 1 rite.. up 2 u... u r d 1 controlling urself now.. i could only watch or listen if u want 2.. tons of words i gave 2 u..bt u sure are stubborn little girl.. Please remember diz.. U ARE NOT A BURDEN..! dont u ever say such things anymoe.. We're best Friend! a special one..! no such things as burden between us ok... I'm sory if i ever said hurtful things bout u b4.. ok..?

Hmm.. bout those guys u r into nowadays.. Hmm..plis dont push them so hard, little Lillith.. U r trying 2 play them..bt be careful..be xtremely careful..! Men..they would be so nice 2 d 1 they r into..bt they could be a Ferocious Demon 2 d 1 who hurt them.. well... most men are.. bt i know a lot who such a patience guy..
R u mad at me adressing u as Little Lillith..? well.. u didn't think u are.. Do tell me plis... i dont want u 2 be mad at me in the time like dis.. I'm scared~.. Haha.. I wouldnt mind if i were u.. sometimes i told people dat i'm Lucifer... Heh.. Stupid..
Alrite now.. time 2 sleep....amigo..

Nak Kenalkan...Farah~

Hey.. I got 2 tell diz.. patot lme da ak bgtau... tp aku bz cket wat assgnment mggu ni.. n ble ade kseempatan pn aku bgtau dlm blog lg 1 jek.. hehe.. it's a gud news actually... Hmmm..
Sbnarnye.. aku da ade Girlfren.. Yup..! Grlfren! hehe.. sogan den... eh... loghat nogoghi plak eh..mntang2 awek org nogoghi 9... hehe.. praktis la ni...
Emm.. Fara nme dye... Cute.. muke Chinese cket.. mude lg...skang Form 5.. Hehee.. akhirnya hajat aku nk cari awek mude2 trmakbul.. Hey..aku syg dye dowh.. siyezly..!! N dye pn realy2 syg aku.. we both hope diz is our best choice.. I love her.. n i hope we could make it..far...
:-]
weh.. besfren aku plak da laen abeh da ni.. 2 lar.. aku igt nk citer kt dye la kn yg aku dpt awek ni... tp since dye da change giler2..kinda cold ngn aku.. trus aku x citer2 smpai skg... besfren aku ni... d Little Mushroom yg aku knal dlu, skg da jadik Little Lillith.. tau Lillith 2 pe x? cari kt Wikipedia kalo nk tau lbh lanjut.. hehe.. Lillith is actually the Mother of all Demons..the Queen of Demons.. (sng ckp Iblis brjantina female la..) Jadik, nmpk x..? dye da jadik cm jahat siot.. Whooouuu~~ ntah lar.. jgn 1 ari nt ko mkn diri suda...
adios...

Changing.....

Hooohh... Lots of changing... since aku post "Learn 2 accept" ari 2.. ak dapati mkin byk bnde yg changing di sekeliling aku.. Huuh.. nk nganjing aku ke ape..? hehe... mcm la dorg ad bace blog aku ni plk kn.. tp mmg tol la.. Lots of changing.. terutama skali my best fren i see.. dye da laen siot skg.. sejakda ade boipren ni nk bukak mulut ngn aku pn da payah.. x aku tye, x brckp la dye.. last2 aku pn mls la.. cm terkejar2 lak nmpak kang... ceh.. xper la.. ko pn hepi nmpkyer... Yelar.. moga ko bahagia la slalu hndaknye.. Ni ape kejadah plak roll call kol 2200H lak ni.. tgk.. sume nk changing.. Hmm.. nk wat cmne.. accept jela.. kn..?

Whoa.. Big Sory..

I never tought dat i would say such things.. especially towards u little grl... I've read the post which u refer 2 the part when some1 says u r trying 2 " jilat bntot Ajutan".. Haha.. i dunno if there are other prson who would said dat 2 u 2.. bt i rmember i said dat.. Hey.. Big sory here.. actually, i dont mean it.. i know dat u r d victim over there.. he's been usin u... there are also other parts dat i think i said such an unpleasant words..Hey.. i care bout u..always.. but when i always care bout u.. ko pn jadk rimas nt kn.. n people would say dat we are "something"..since we r so close..dats y i said things dat would make me look like i doesn't care bout u.. Hey, i like when people said bout us, actually.. But i dont think u would.. u see.. u r a lady..cute 1.. n i'm a stupid jerk.. It looks like Beauty n The Beast.. doesn't mean dat i don't like u.. bt i'm afraid dat u would bengang ngan mulut2 yg x suda2 ckp kte itu la..ini la.. da laa.. ko pn mnyampah jek kalo aku brjiwang2 ni..aku pn bkn ske beno brjiwang2 ni..lg2 dpn ko.. segan bodo aku... hakhakhak! k lar.. I'm sory again k.. kalo ko bce ni aku hrp ko fhm la yer.. da brcmpur2 da bhse ni.. aku nk tdo... bye..

Learn To Accept...

People Change.. it's our nature.. it's not a fault..
But, considering HOW they change.. it could be hard 4 others 2 accept.. it could be hurtful 2 others too..when we change, we hope dat people like it.. people can accept it.. people understand it.. but when people change.. we dislike it.. we get angry.. we feel hurt by it.. but hey.. do u really think dat they have change..? perhaps, it's their own true self dat they dont want to hide anymore.. their dark side they trust u to accept.. but u couldn't.. wat if u are the 1 who were said 2 have been change..2 a darker side..worse.. huh?
Learn To Accept.....

Allodoxaphobia - Fear of opinions

"You don't like it when people tell you what they think of you, either it is good or bad. You enjoy life more when people keep their comments to themselves (which is not easy for any of your friends). You need to just calm down and take their advice. Even if it goes against everything you believe in. Trust me, you need help!!!" take a quiz on Fb... dis shows my fear.. And WoW...! i think it is.. :'-(

Try n Learn......

ape bnde yg susah sgt skang ni..? aku rase terabai oleh seseorang... walhal aritu bru kuar enjoy sme2.... Learn 2 forget....or.....Learn 2 forgive... choose... both would give u a good result... Try n learn...would u, pendek...?

Hahaha! mlm ni pnat sungguh.. disebabkan mulut busuk beberapa skuad aku... junior kompeni Delta sume kne taji mlm ni... stat 11 lbh..till pkul 1 lbh... ponat den.. muscle kt lengan ni nk mletup pulak dah.. Knuckle smpai berdarah lg... Sialan~...Kedamaian~.... rse nk terajang sial dak airforce 2... Mulut die aritu plg lantang skali bersuare.. mntg2 dak debate.. tp rupenye, KOSONG melantung...! sungkit babi, Gorila sit n Pakistan walk..Sume dye xtau..! nmpk sgt kaki secure...da ler kaki secure, mulut nk langsi.. x layak nk langsi ngn aku la ko ni,BODO.. dlu siap nk brgado2 lg time aku bergurau2.. sial ko itam.. agk gua kalo gua hit lu skg ni, lu jadik bodo terencat seumur hidup tsu.. zhuh! da lar.. mls nk ckp lg... Bye..

Death of Love

"Her penultimate sighs
Called softly on the kindling winds
Her saintly eyes, filling with tears, lifting with truth
And then a golden flash like the onset of Heaven
Leaving her screams, Breaking my heart
And in the grip of fire
I knew the death of love"

Where will you be when they tense for warfare?
What will you see with your innocence there?
Where will you be my darling?
Where will you be when they tense for warfare?

Where will you be when God is glorifying?
There we will be between the dead and dying
Where will you be my darling?
Where will you be when God is glorifying?

Prophecies and glory forge a massive disdain
For lying passive in the shadows whilst the enemy reigns
Devoted to the votive, holy standard above
'By command of the king of Heaven'
Came the death of love

Where will you be when they're vilifying?
How will they see when the truth is blinding?
Where will you be my darling?
Where will you be when they're vilifying?

Where will you be when the dark is rising?
How will you keep from it's terrorizing?
Where will you be my darling?
Where will you be when the dark is rising?

Burning was the sunset like a portent of doom
On the saintly iron maiden as she fell from her wound

But visions and ambition
Never listened to submission
And she was on a mission from the highest above
To Lord upon the slaughter
Like a sword through hissing water
She arose where archers sought her
For the death of love

The righteous death of love

Gilles adored her drama
Her suit of pure white armour
Blazed against the English in a torrent of light

And as they rallied onto night
A cancer fled his soul
Dissolving...

Framed amid the thick of fire
Aflame, a Valkyrie
She made him click without desire
And in his eyes she swam a Goddess

And even when they caught her breath
Her words would leave a scar
'For only in the grip of darkness
Will we shine amidst the brightest stars'

How will you breathe when their wheels are turning?
How will you know if the sky is burning?
Where will you be my darling?
How will you breathe when their wheels are turning?

Where will you be when Babel builds my fire?
Will you not flee and label me pariah?
Where will you be my darling?
Where will you be when they light my pyre?

Aligned with Joan in all
That was enthroned and divine
He swore to score the crimes
Jackdaws poured on this dove
Crimes he knew alone
Derived from minds of the blind
The church unfurled for murder perched
Upon the death of love

Framed amid the thick of fire
Aflame, a Valkyrie
She claimed the sky was lit with spires
And in his eyes she swam a Goddess

And even when she fought for breath
Her words would leave a scar
'For only in the grip of darkness
Will we shine amidst the brightest stars'